I was going to answer the individual comments but I realised to do that would remove much of what I had planned to write today. Yesterday massage looking back on it was really great when it came to two hours spent with an interesting and friendly person who understood from her work what it is like to live with chronic illness, just not having to describe everything in detail was in itself refreshing, the normal fact of new people in my life is normally long detailed discussion on how it feels to be me, I don’t mind doing that but as I said it was refreshing. The massage itself was relaxing but as she commented I didn’t seem to have the knotted muscles that most do, simple reason for that I know is I am at peace in my world and not fighting it.
So here I am 24 hrs on and what do I feel now and last night, well last night first. I did notice that the burning feeling I usually have at the end of a day in the soles of my feet was remarkably lessened, something I am grateful for as sitting at a time when I want to relax but not being able to, as I don’t know how to stop the pain in my feet, is an annoyance everyday. I suspect though that if someone who doesn’t know anything a bout reflexology sent an hour gently massaging my feet everyday I would get a similar effect. Massage does notably increases the blood flow and gentle pressure on the muscles does release some pain. I know myself that when I have a muscle that is driving me mad with a spasm that to shove my fingers as deeply into the muscle forces it to let go, I would then expect the more gentle motion to release those that are just no sitting quietly and correctly.
The rest of my body I have to say I really didn’t feel any change, well their might have been a slight change in the pain in my legs but again I can see that the massage on my feet will have helped with the blood flow through out my legs and that may have reduced and relieve some of the leg spasms. The discomfort round where my diaphragm is, which would include may gallbladder, liver and spleen what she was working on through the reflex points in my feet was the same as ever. I spent the evening as I always do, part of the time leaning forward to help with one area, then sitting back with my knuckle pushed in to my spine forcing it forward to deal with the others. I have always listened to my body and reacted as it wants as in for no reason that at first makes sense, some of what I learned online yesterday from all the graphs I found, show me that without knowing why I was using a lot of the reflex points around my body, without knowing they where there. I do strongly believe that your body tells you these things and we all do it without having an explanation as to why.
This morning I woke as always with pain in my back and dead legs and arms. So no change there. Getting out of bed and the first half hour was as painful and stiff as I have now been for years. What I have found this morning is that the soles of my feet are burning really early, by many hours. I just hope that they will settle as a whole day with it isn’t my idea of fun, I feel simply that it delayed the effect from last night to today, or it could just be coincidence.
It is hard to stay open minded about this process and to work out if it is worth the cost, yesterday was a gift and I really appreciated that but going forward it is a cost that I am not sure we can afford, at £45 per session it is a lot to commit to, with no income for myself we are having to watch our pennies. What happens now? I am sure there has to be a way of replicating the effect on my feet, because that was a real boost, but doesn’t have the cost attached. I have seen massage mats that you simply have your feet on when seated and the small movements that we all make while apparently still are meant to be enough to do the same. I will need to do a little research.